Friday, 16. September 2005 12:49
We knew last night was going to be rough so we gave Griffin Motrin before bed and he slept pretty well from 8:00 until around midnight. Then all hell broke loose. I’m not really sure how to describe the middle-of-the-night screaming fests, they may seem worse when I’m in the middle of them because I’m usually very tired. We have a routine for this now, we put on the lullaby CD to try to help with the soothing, but he was screaming so loudly and continuously that he couldn’t hear it anyway.
I seem to be lacking in mother’s intuition. I honestly could not tell what was going on. Was he in pain? Certainly from the teeth, but was it more than that? I had everything running through my head, reaction to food, gas, growing pains? Was he angry? Certainly he was angry and lashing out at me, but was it because I wouldn’t get up with him and bring him to the other room? Because I couldn’t help him feel better? He was flinging himself on the floor and kicking his feet, several times I had to physically restrain him to keep him from injuring himself by banging his head into the wall or into the dresser.
After half an hour he settled down into sobbing and let me hold him, then an hour of sobbing and restless thrashing about until he finally fell asleep.
As his mother I’m responsible for him, and I really feel a need to fix this. But how when I can’t even figure out what’s wrong? Several people have suggested alternative practitioners to me. A friend pointed out that trying something at least wouldn’t do any harm. But how do I choose among things I don’t believe in? Chiropractor, cranio-sacral therapist, exorcist? And how do I know if something’s working? Because if there’s anything I’ve learned about babies, it’s that whatever’s happening now will be different next month no matter what I do. Ack.
And then after all that we had an amazingly pleasant morning. Griffin went to the park with his dad while I showered, and then we went to Carandale and stocked up on apples, grapes, cider, and the strawberry-rhubarb pies that Julian loves. Griffin snacked on half an apple and then fell fast asleep, he’s napping now and I guess I’ll go join him.