Friday, 21. January 2005 22:03
And so it begins.
Candy suggested I start a blog. I find them to be self-indulgent attempts at exaggerated self importance and ego gratification. It’s taken me until just about now to be rather comfortable and accepting of that. Plus, it’s not so effective if no one reads it (probably not so effective if someone does).
Candy’s point was that it’s a great way to log aspects of your life. We both suffer poor memory skills, and it’s nice to keep track of some things along the way.
There are additional concerns. Privacy. People scare me. I don’t want them to find out about me. This competes with my desire for admiration from the masses of the fantastic, incredible person that I am. Well, if I were. And what better way to pull the wool over their eyes than a blog?
Plus just exactly who’s reading? I have offensive thoughts. I’m eager to share them, because I’m sure they’re revolutionary and profound. But I don’t want to offend anyone. At least not anyone I might meet in real life. As much as I try, I can’t guarantee my anonymity [from my mom] (which, again, will compete with my desire to be renowned [by my mom]). Plus I might want to share my musings with others, which creates an instant security leak. If I let a friend read it, and then have to kill them to cover my tracks, that probably puts a massive dent in my readership.
But I find myself reading other folks’ blogs and genuinely enjoying the experience. And last week, for the first time, Griffin came crawling over to me when I got home from work. As unsentimental as I am, that’s the kind of thing I want to gush about. And ironically, although I’ve got a whole family now, I don’t really have anyone to gush to. Candy and I have involuntarily drifted, much to our dismay. In fact, blogging may become a key family communication tool! And I have political rants to make. Million dollar ideas to share. Keen social observations to proffer. Griffin’s my main audience, but at 8 months, he mostly smirks and tries to crawl through me to get to the ever-important electrical outlet.
So this is the beginning. Or if you reading from most recent post on back, This is the end.